Here's my heart in a postcard baby

I was looking through old photos on FB and ahh, memories: Those Cedarian Dayzz.

I cannot help but notice how different we are now (this largely pertains to appearance), except for a fun-sized friend of mine whose only change is hairstyle. Those 4 years are seriously the most memorable and valuable.

I cannot emphasise how much Cedar changed me.

1. I spoke 100% mandarin in primary school. And home, ditto. In Cedar (or in any other girls' school), you kinda get looked down if you breathe a word of Chinese. So this forced me to brush up on my spoken and written English (which was horrible, and still is a lil horrible). I remembered in Sec 1, I was 2nd last in class because I failed English. WTF.

2. Cedar taught me how a gracious lady should carry herself. & judging from the way I sit, it is apparent that this portion has yet been absorbed by me. However it still makes a ginormous difference as you would never imagine the words that I use prior to entering Cedar. Each sentence that came out of my mouth will contain bits of Hokkien (which unfortunately sounds crude no matter what you say) and is unintentionally disrespectful. While I'm in the General Office for the first time (to appeal), I was shot a disgusted look by our beloved LKC as I was speaking like a 100% ah lian. From then on, the 12 year-old realised that her behaviour is unacceptable in a good school like Cedar.

3. How can I not mention how much training has shaped me? I can still vividly remember how scared we are when it is a training day. It's like you hope that you will really fall sick or could fall into a drain and sprain your ankle so you wouldn't have to run. But these long distance runs have silently developed our determination and endurance, no? And the rule of arriving 30 mins earlier (albeit exaggerating) instill in us the importance of punctuality, though I still prefer to be fashionably late.

I don't know how else Cedar has changed me but it seems like every part me is a little modified by the culture.

Even though sec school life is not easy (we didn't experience JC then) and everyday was dreaded, I would say that in the end I still find this journey worthwhile.

Sending girls to Cedar? Like #fyeah (only if she goes thru what I went thru).